Thank you to everyone who've sent me their thoughts and love, I have been horrible at responding but that doesn't mean it's gone unnoticed. You've held me up and helped me more than you'll ever know. Through all of this I've been reminded of how lucky I am to be surrounded by so much love.
My life is not what it used to be. I've felt for a long time that I had nothing to say outside of my grief and so I said nothing. I'm not sure that was the best way to handle it, and so starting today I'm changing that. I have started another blog so that I can write specifically about what I'm feeling/thinking in regards to my darling sweet Lucas. I'm not putting those thoughts on this blog because for the first time I feel like I have things to write about that are outside the realm of grief and that's what I want this space to be. But maybe, there are some friends that are wondering what's going on in my head or how I'm holding up and if you want to you can head on over there and find out.